I'm Different
No, this is not a rant about how "special" I am, or that I'm a so-called non conformist, it's just a little post about what makes me different from the average young person.
For one, I have an unwaivering faith in God. I have never questioned Him, yet I do not follow blindly. I know why I love God, and I have never blamed/hated Him for hardships or questioned His power. I have never felt the need to rebel or try something out of bounds just because, as a teenager, I "have that right." I know what's wrong and what's right, and I act accordingly. Not because Mommy and Daddy will ground me if I don't, but because it's what's in me to do.
For another, I am literate. I barely remember a time when I couldn't read. I know that I could in kindergarten. My parents took no particularly special action to ensure that I knew how to read and spell, I just picked it up. Kind of how I learned to tie my shoes without instruction. I am a bit of a grammar and spelling freak and it drives me nuts when a person can spell "incessant," a word not often used in the everyday vocabulary of a young person, but can't for the life of him or her spell "definitely." I have found that most of my own teachers can't spell or pronounce what, to me, would be a simple word or phrase. Just like it seems to be bred into many teachers to pronounce "false" as "faltse," or be completely incapable of pronouncing a name like "Alyssa" without being taught syllable by syllable.
Another difference in me, one that I am particularly proud of, is my love for television and movies, and the fact that it really has no negative influence on me. I remember watching Freddy Krueger movies as young as three years old, never having nightmares, never being genuinely scared. Of course I tested the waters as a child, repeating a naughty word to my parents and being told that's not a good thing to say, but that's all it took; I only needed to be told once. I have not been made dumber by television and I don't believe it's television that does it. People are either easily influenced or they aren't. They're either free-thinkers or followers. If television has such influential power over a person, there's something internally wrong with that person to begin with. Actually, I've learned a lot from TV that I didn't learn in school. I learned of Apartheid in Lethal Weapon 2, long before it was ever brought up in class. I knew the meanings of bigger words and more about the reality of life at a younger age and I was not traumatized because of it.
And finally, something about myself that I have come to rely on, yet remain completely fascinated about, is my unique perception. I am attracted to people firstly by their demeanor, whether it be in a potential friend, or a potential boyfriend. I very easily "figure people out." By that, I mean I am almost always right about my perception of of a person's thought process and behavior. This is something that I also never point out for obvious reasons: I am not a snobbish person, and I don't want to wierd people out-I get enough wierd looks as it is! I would never tell a friend that I have them all figured out because they would find it threatening, they definitely wouldn't believe me, and I don't claim to be right all the time. There are other aspects of my perception, but that's something I'm not going to get into right now.
So, there ya go, I finally wrote a semi-kinda-good blog! These are just a few of the things that I think makes me a unique individual, something that I hope provides a little insight into who I am. You're fascinated, I just know it! Har.
For one, I have an unwaivering faith in God. I have never questioned Him, yet I do not follow blindly. I know why I love God, and I have never blamed/hated Him for hardships or questioned His power. I have never felt the need to rebel or try something out of bounds just because, as a teenager, I "have that right." I know what's wrong and what's right, and I act accordingly. Not because Mommy and Daddy will ground me if I don't, but because it's what's in me to do.
For another, I am literate. I barely remember a time when I couldn't read. I know that I could in kindergarten. My parents took no particularly special action to ensure that I knew how to read and spell, I just picked it up. Kind of how I learned to tie my shoes without instruction. I am a bit of a grammar and spelling freak and it drives me nuts when a person can spell "incessant," a word not often used in the everyday vocabulary of a young person, but can't for the life of him or her spell "definitely." I have found that most of my own teachers can't spell or pronounce what, to me, would be a simple word or phrase. Just like it seems to be bred into many teachers to pronounce "false" as "faltse," or be completely incapable of pronouncing a name like "Alyssa" without being taught syllable by syllable.
Another difference in me, one that I am particularly proud of, is my love for television and movies, and the fact that it really has no negative influence on me. I remember watching Freddy Krueger movies as young as three years old, never having nightmares, never being genuinely scared. Of course I tested the waters as a child, repeating a naughty word to my parents and being told that's not a good thing to say, but that's all it took; I only needed to be told once. I have not been made dumber by television and I don't believe it's television that does it. People are either easily influenced or they aren't. They're either free-thinkers or followers. If television has such influential power over a person, there's something internally wrong with that person to begin with. Actually, I've learned a lot from TV that I didn't learn in school. I learned of Apartheid in Lethal Weapon 2, long before it was ever brought up in class. I knew the meanings of bigger words and more about the reality of life at a younger age and I was not traumatized because of it.
And finally, something about myself that I have come to rely on, yet remain completely fascinated about, is my unique perception. I am attracted to people firstly by their demeanor, whether it be in a potential friend, or a potential boyfriend. I very easily "figure people out." By that, I mean I am almost always right about my perception of of a person's thought process and behavior. This is something that I also never point out for obvious reasons: I am not a snobbish person, and I don't want to wierd people out-I get enough wierd looks as it is! I would never tell a friend that I have them all figured out because they would find it threatening, they definitely wouldn't believe me, and I don't claim to be right all the time. There are other aspects of my perception, but that's something I'm not going to get into right now.
So, there ya go, I finally wrote a semi-kinda-good blog! These are just a few of the things that I think makes me a unique individual, something that I hope provides a little insight into who I am. You're fascinated, I just know it! Har.
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